Things change so quickly.
There was a time only months ago when I entered a new world of ancient people seen through different light. And there was so much joy and excitement and eagerness for the unknown. Now I sit shivering in a puddle on the pavement cast from the streetlight and that summer kingdom has fallen apart and we smoke and sigh and watch the dull days go by.
But me and you, we stuck together.
I must give back to the Universe for granting me you, but what can I do?
Saturday, 1 November 2014
A tremor roared within me, from the pit of my gut and a fierce tidal wave rose, pulling all my energy and the colour from my face into its build, and crashed down with so much force that it splashed up and streams of salt water ran from my eyes. Even after my sea returned to wind and waves and my eyes had dried, there were broken bits strewn throughout my body and stuck in my skin and I wished I'd drowned in the tsunami, so I tried to drown in gin.
Tuesday, 29 April 2014
Thursday, 24 April 2014
Sometimes I'll be driving, or drinking, or watching a movie, or skipping class to run across a snowy beach in solitude, and I think: I'm going to be a mother one day. How can that be? Here I am speeding through yellow lights, trying to drown out my stress, grasping at inspiration, and desperately wanting to feel alive, and I'm going to be a mother one day? What do I have to pass down, or share, or teach?
I have so much to learn myself; how can I be sure I even know who I am?
Monday, 7 April 2014
I wish the crows would come today,
Take hold of my clothing and carry me away.
I would learn all their calls,
And be called,
Queen of Crows.
I'd wear their fallen feathers
And live amongst the trees.
I'd wear all the treasures
My crows bring back for me.
- November 7th, 2013
Wednesday, 2 April 2014
Eating my breakfast at the kitchen counter, I just happened to venture into the photo gallery on Mom's phone and found a few from the summer; seeing them brought on quite a wave of hopefulness for the next to come. I often think about warm weather and how good it will feel to step onto the earth in my barefeet again.
I'm also in a good mood because I finally finished reading Pride & Prejudice, and the anxiety of wanting Darcy and Elizabeth to just get together already is now soothed.
"Think only of the past as its remembrance gives you pleasure."
- Elizabeth Bennet
Thursday, 13 March 2014
Finished this one today. It looks pretty bright because of my camera's flash, I think, and yes there is a giant crease through the cardboard, but that's okay; I'll probably just end up tacking it to my wall anyway. It isn't my best work (I'm not sure what is), but I'm still learning. I call it "Meadow of Fire: A Photograph by Jonathan Hyde", because I based it completely off of someone else's work: the below photo. (I may have went overboard on the flowers).
Friday, 7 March 2014
This is a painting I did today on a crappy bent&dented piece of corrugated cardboard. It's not something I'm extremely proud of, since there are obvious areas that need improvement, but it did turn out a lot better than I had expected.
I've called it "Salt Pool".
Thursday, 13 February 2014
My dad always told me
To love people like I love trees.
Some are straight, tall,
Gnarled, bent, twisted, small,
But each contributes
To the beauty of their scene.
Every person, large or lean,
Is unique, extraordinary,
nothing special, just a tree;
an irreplaceable beauty.
Sunday, 26 January 2014
Saturday, 25 January 2014
Thursday, 23 January 2014
I've always been a drawer. But I realize now how long it's been (since the summer, I believe) since I've actually sat down with my sketch book and observed a picture or subject long enough to record them through my perspective. I remember how good it belt to finally complete a drawing and be proud of it.
(I know, my signature sucks)
I used an old novel as a sketch book for a while when I lost my main one.
A drawing I did on the back of a paper placemat waiting for my meal :)
Sunday, 19 January 2014
My favourite Christmas gift, from my parents. I love it; I'll even wear it in the summer with excessive turquoise jewelry.
This silver cross necklace is my second favourite gift; my boyfriend bought it for my birthday, and I love it (and him) so much.
This jacket was a birthday gift from my parents; I wasn't sure how I felt about it when I opened it, but after trying it on I realized how much it surprisingly suited me, and how could I resist soft faux fur?
This cardigan is a gift from my sister; I loved it as soon as I saw it in the store, it's cozy and so soft and perfect to go with a black dress.
I bought this velvet bralet a couple of days ago, for $5! Of course it will probably have to wait until summer, but I think it will be worn well.
I bought this velvet-y knit short sweater at a thrift store not long ago and I've already worn it several times.
A light poncho for summer months.
This dress is similar to the above white cardigan; it's soft and furry/fuzzy, and it's unique.
Just a pine green tank top that matches my eyes.
A thrifted summer cardigan.
Another cardigan, probably for summer considering the drafty holes.
A fluffy/furry hoodie that cannot possibly fail to keep me warm.
This long, maroon poncho is super cozy and I wear it around the house all day.
Striped crop top for parties or summer days.
A scarf and a lilac wrap for reading with a cup of tea.
A soft and cozy infinity scarf my Aunt knitted for me!
A light gold and turquoise scarf; thrifted.
Aaaand a stretchy infinity scarf from my best friend that I can wear in several different ways.