bathing suit beth

I don't actually know a Beth. This is a really quick Paint drawing I did recently; I hesitated about sharing it because it's so horribly done - as you can see I left out any possible shading I could have done and the photos are so pixelated it's agitating. I wasn't even sure which hair colour I liked best so I ended up with both. 

The snow is coming down pretty heavily; I'm shivering in a pile of blankets dreaming of bathing suits and the sweatier seasons.

doomed and cool

There are some songs or poems that make me ache because I feel a sort of nostalgia as I listen to/read them, even though they are not my experiences at all. Does anyone else ever feel that way?

"Poetry should surprise by a fine excess and not by singularity, it should strike the reader as a wording of his own highest thoughts, and appear almost a remembrance." -John Keats

A quote I came across once upon a time and cried of joy at its accuracy to my inward feelings I was never able to pinpoint or put into words. Why is it that the brilliant people I relate to the most, are dead?

hump day drawing

Whipped a little something up today! I don't really know where it came from or how to describe it, but I like him. I'm seriously thinking about printing this onto a t-shirt; what a perfect staple it would be to have strewn around the bedroom floor at the cottage all summer! 

blizzard blues

Blustery blizzard going on outside right now. Here's a lame .gif I made a few days ago because the sun was out for once and so bright it was shining in my eyeballs and I was basically blind. Here are some journal doodles from the past couple of days as well. Excuse the excruciating bad quality of the photos.

MS Paint portraits

I finally found out how to download Microsoft Paint on my Mac! (Which means I never actually tried to, until now). Here are my first two Paint masterpieces ever (since the age of like, nine). I obviously don't want to spend too much time hunched over my laptop staring into a screen and slowly going insane from frustration, so I'm not sure how often I'll be whipping these things up. However, I do hope to continue making Paint art and maybe get better and, hopefully quicker at it. Enjoy :)

dull day drawings

Here's a collection of bad quality photos of some not-that-great quality drawings I did today with a Sharpie marker and pencil crayons. I think I'm going to start actually using my blog again. Maybe. I hope. But, you know how that goes. 

I was lying in bed this morning half-asleep and saw this creature through a tunnel.

You know when you close your eyes and see blackness? It was almost like there was a tunnel through the blackness into another room, and this alien thing was peering back at me, looking a bit distraught. It freaked me out enough to get me out of bed; I drew it out and added feminine features.

Struggling to float out of my body under a layer of several blankets.

I imagined a giant hand over my bed before I went to sleep so that if the time came, I could reach up and grab it and be pulled out of my body without really having to think about it.

Sketch of a '70s inspired outfit; there's supposed to be a bag or something in her hand but I got lazy.

The contents of my bag.

- my student ID which is no longer relevant, my driver's license, and debit card

- a spare key in case I get locked out of my car

- a small collection of change

- a couple of bobby pins, a tampon, Christmas lip gloss, and a rectangular tube of lipstick

- a pencil sharpener

- a pouch with a fish on it that I keep my iPod & headphones in, which are also shown

- pink lipstick, a lighter that says wasting my YOUNG YEARS, apple hand cream + another bobby pin

- a smiley face sticker that doesn't stick anymore but I never throw it out for some reason

- a pack of gum with one piece left

- Nivea lip chap

- a hair elastic, an eraser, a green plastic case, a short pencil, and a gel pen

- a Value Village receipt and smushed cigarette package

poolside kingdom

Things change so quickly.
There was a time only months ago when I entered a new world of ancient people seen through different light. And there was so much joy and excitement and eagerness for the unknown. Now I sit shivering in a puddle on the pavement cast from the streetlight and that summer kingdom has fallen apart and we smoke and sigh and watch the dull days go by.
But me and you, we stuck together.
I must give back to the Universe for granting me you, but what can I do?

you scare me to sickness

A tremor roared within me, from the pit of my gut and a fierce tidal wave rose, pulling all my energy and the colour from my face into its build, and crashed down with so much force that it splashed up and streams of salt water ran from my eyes. Even after my sea returned to wind and waves and my eyes had dried, there were broken bits strewn throughout my body and stuck in my skin and I wished I'd drowned in the tsunami, so I tried to drown in gin.

a super random collection of inspiration

These are my favourite images I've recently reblogged on tumblr;

if you see something that belongs to you, send me an email and I can give you credit.

x~

new life again and again

Sometimes I'll be driving, or drinking, or watching a movie, or skipping class to run across a snowy beach in solitude, and I think: I'm going to be a mother one day. How can that be? Here I am speeding through yellow lights, trying to drown out my stress, grasping at inspiration, and desperately wanting to feel alive, and I'm going to be a mother one day? What do I have to pass down, or share, or teach?

I have so much to learn myself; how can I be sure I even know who I am?

x~

the crows come today

I wish the crows would come today,

Take hold of my clothing and carry me away.

I would learn all their calls,

And be called,

Queen of Crows.

I'd wear their fallen feathers

And live amongst the trees.

I'd wear all the treasures

My crows bring back for me.

                               - November 7th, 2013

x~

summer reminisce

Eating my breakfast at the kitchen counter, I just happened to venture into the photo gallery on Mom's phone and found a few from the summer; seeing them brought on quite a wave of hopefulness for the next to come. I often think about warm weather and how good it will feel to step onto the earth in my barefeet again.

I'm also in a good mood because I finally finished reading Pride & Prejudice, and the anxiety of wanting Darcy and Elizabeth to just get together already is now soothed.

"Think only of the past as its remembrance gives you pleasure."

                           - Elizabeth Bennet

x~

"Meadow Of Fire"

Finished this one today. It looks pretty bright because of my camera's flash, I think, and yes there is a giant crease through the cardboard, but that's okay; I'll probably just end up tacking it to my wall anyway. It isn't my best work (I'm not sure what is), but I'm still learning. I call it "Meadow of Fire: A Photograph by Jonathan Hyde", because I based it completely off of someone else's work: the below photo. (I may have went overboard on the flowers). 

x~

salt pool

This is a painting I did today on a crappy bent&dented piece of corrugated cardboard. It's not something I'm extremely proud of, since there are obvious areas that need improvement, but it did turn out a lot better than I had expected. 

I've called it "Salt Pool". 

x~